(This post was brought over from my blog on weebly.com)
I'm use to being home alone. D'Vonte use to cut out every weekend, holiday, and summer break and go to stay with his grandparents. It's just a rather weird feelings to be home alone now, to know that he's not coming back ever ...
Monday was actually the first day I've stayed at my house since D'Vonte passed. I'd been planning to come home for weeks, but it always got put off for one reason or another.
It's still hard to believe he's gone. Since June 20, 2010 the days have just flown past. I don't know where the time has went, I feel like I've lost the past couple months of my life because everything was such a fog, that I don't really remember any of it.
I'm blessed to have the family and friends that I do, everyone has been very supportive. I appreciate that they left me alone when I needed to be, and were there when I needed someone. I'm still working on becoming sociable again. But its still a little soon, I hope no one has taken it personal that I didn't want to be bothered. There's only been a select few family/friends that I've been around. And even they were in moderation. I'm an only child so I'm a loner, I'm use to handling everything alone.... well not "alone" but with God. I've always handled my difficult times with just God and myself.
There are so many thoughts running through my head right now .... but I'm going to bring this post to an end...
Till next time I'm out ....
- ONE <3 -
Journaling .....
(This post was brought over from a blog on weebly.com)
To those who have a sick child let me recommend that you keep a journal. Just to keep track of your thoughts and feelings and the journey that you are going to go threw through out the years. I was told to do this when D'vonte was small and had to have open heart surgery, I started many times. but never keep up with it. and now I REALLY wish I had. Even if you don't have a sick child I would recommend you to start a journal. You don't have to write daily, you can do one entry and summarize your whole week. You can really learn a lot about yourself through journaling.
But if you have a sick child it's good to keep up with what they (and you) go threw through the years, especially if you ever need to look back and see have they had/felt something before etc.
Through out the years I've kept a written journal and a online blog (journal) but when writing online I don't put ALL my business out there ... if you know what I mean. I only write about what I don't care if anybody knows. I always keep it real and tell the truth. No need to lie, if I wrote its truth. I lost my other online blog, because I didn't back up my files and I let the web space go because I was going to get a new domain name well i got Simply-Valerie but I never got web hosting. Well I decided to try this free space out to see if I'm actually going to keep up with blogging this time before I spend money on hosting, lol.
Be forewarned, I don't try to write proper, I don't worry about spelling etc. this is my space & time to relax and just exhale, not worry about proper English. I do that when I'm in school, or at work.
I tried to post something like this on my Facebook in a status message awhile back but the message was to long, and my fb iphone app was acting a monkey ;) LoL
Again, I would like to thank all the support I've gotten during this difficult time from my Facebook family and friends! Ya'll are awesome and I love you all!!
To those who have a sick child let me recommend that you keep a journal. Just to keep track of your thoughts and feelings and the journey that you are going to go threw through out the years. I was told to do this when D'vonte was small and had to have open heart surgery, I started many times. but never keep up with it. and now I REALLY wish I had. Even if you don't have a sick child I would recommend you to start a journal. You don't have to write daily, you can do one entry and summarize your whole week. You can really learn a lot about yourself through journaling.
But if you have a sick child it's good to keep up with what they (and you) go threw through the years, especially if you ever need to look back and see have they had/felt something before etc.
Through out the years I've kept a written journal and a online blog (journal) but when writing online I don't put ALL my business out there ... if you know what I mean. I only write about what I don't care if anybody knows. I always keep it real and tell the truth. No need to lie, if I wrote its truth. I lost my other online blog, because I didn't back up my files and I let the web space go because I was going to get a new domain name well i got Simply-Valerie but I never got web hosting. Well I decided to try this free space out to see if I'm actually going to keep up with blogging this time before I spend money on hosting, lol.
Be forewarned, I don't try to write proper, I don't worry about spelling etc. this is my space & time to relax and just exhale, not worry about proper English. I do that when I'm in school, or at work.
I tried to post something like this on my Facebook in a status message awhile back but the message was to long, and my fb iphone app was acting a monkey ;) LoL
Again, I would like to thank all the support I've gotten during this difficult time from my Facebook family and friends! Ya'll are awesome and I love you all!!
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